Welcome to My Crazy Life

Hey friend! My Name is Kimmy Durham. Whether this is your first time getting to know me, or we have been friends since my last name was Spriggs, I am so glad you are here. In case you are new around here, I am going to try to summarize the insanity that is my life in as few words as possible. 

First thing you need to know? I am all in for God. He has proven time and time again that He has my back, no matter the situation I find myself in. I don't know how anyone could look at my life, see the things I have made it through, and not give all the credit to a God who loves me and provides in my moments of need. When I say I am all in for God, I mean it. I have spent several years of my life with ministry as my full-time vocation. In fact, at one point in life, I dropped everything, moved 500 miles away, and dedicated two years to an internship college program at a church in Sacramento, where I met and fell in love with my wonderful husband. 

That's the next thing you have to know about me. I am a newlywed who is head over heels for my hunky husband. I mean, look at that picture at the top of the page... be jealous ladies. Did I mention that he is a musician? Not only can he play several instruments, sing, and lead worship, but he produces music in his spare time. Oh, and the only thing he loves more than me is Jesus. Could I have gotten any luckier? 

My husband and I currently live in Dallas, Texas where I work as a performing arts teacher for kids through a Christian Theatre company. The performing arts have been a huge part of my life since I was a toddler, and I have made it my mission to bring the church and the arts together in hopes of changing the world. I know, pretty ambitious of me, but I think life is more fun that way. The struggle is, I've run into roadblock after roadblock on the way to achieving my goals.  


Here's where things get interesting...

I am chronically sick. I have a couple of different chronic illnesses that I have to live with and monitor regularly, and that effect my day to day life. 

The photo of me in that stunning green gown was taken one day post my most recent of many surgeries. This hospital stay was brought to you by a little known disease called Psuedotumor Cerebri. What the heck is that? Well if you look at the roots of the words, Psuedo generally means something fake, we all know what a tumor is, and Cerebri is having to do with the brain. Put that all together and what do you get? Fake Brain Tumor Disease! (Okay maybe I'm the only one who calls it that...) That is a super simplified way of talking about it, but it helped me understand what I was dealing with. 


Let me break down the medicine of it for you. Your skull is full of spinal fluid that your brain sort of floats in. My body makes way too much, which causes extreme pressure to be put on my brain and optic nerves. This can cause vision damage up to blindness, brain damage, and in some cases, even death. The symptoms are very similar to a brain tumor, but there is no tumor to remove. Instead, we have to drain the excess fluid from my skull. 

In September of 2018 (four years after diagnosis, 14 spinal taps later, and after two failed shunts - aka drains - in my spine) my doctors finally made the decision to put a shunt directly into my skull. Now I rock a giant lump on my head, a horseshoe-shaped bald spot (praise God for thick hair!), and tubing that goes all the way from the hole in my skull down to my abdomen. And we can't forget the winter of beanies to hide my bald head. What a fashion statement, right? 


At this point, you might be thinking, "Wow Kimmy, that is a lot for one young woman to handle". Oh man friend, sorry to burst your bubble, but we have only just begun to unpack the wild ride that is my health. Long story short, I also have pretty severe non-diabetic postabsorptive hypoglycemia (that's just a fancy way to say low blood sugar).  We are still working on figuring out why I have it and how to fix it. We haven't even begun to talk about my severe knee issues that have led to multiple surgeries and the fact that my body has gotten 6 infections over a 6 month period of time. 


Basically, my body is a hot mess. I have no idea why I have so many issues, but the fact is, I do. With all of this going on, trust me, there have been some low moments. There have been days I have literally yelled at God until I was crying because this is all so unfair. But then I realized, my health is what it is, and I have no control over that, but what I can control is my reaction to things. After all, life is 10% what happens to you, and 90% how you react to it. I am working every day to react with joy in the face of trials, and I still fail a good 49% of the time, but I am going to keep striving towards a joyful life, and I would love it if you joined me! 



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